go d no matter how much i convince myself that i get better and shit

i still panic. i still feel like im gonna be sick. i still shake and get on the verge of breaking down. this is why im never going to be a social worker. i immediately panic and spin things around s o they’re my fault. its taking every bit of my energy now just to breathe and not start crying

fcfuckufckc i hope he’ll be ok i just. i need to go to bed or something. the more im awake the worse it gets