laughs bitterly guess who’s barely gonna eat today?

got woken up by my dad’s bitching. so now im avoiding going downstairs for anything just to keep myself from having to deal with his bullshit.

though i’m 90% tempted to bring up the topic of sucide just to see how he reacts. Knowing him, it’ll just be “don’t be stupid” or “oh, shut up” bc he doesn’t know how to be a human being.

He’s literal human trash. Probably one of the worst fuckboys I’ll ever meet who thinks he’s so fucking entitled so everything and everything must go his way bc he’s the “man of the house” 

hell, he’s planning on throwing me out this year if i dont get into college

note: im also unemployed bc i havent been able to find a job. 

im just so tired of his bullshit and putting up with it for 20 years. im honestly amazed i havent hospitalized myself by now just to get away from it

if he says anything to me im just gonna pull out the old “yeah, im pathetic, disgusting and worthless, tell me something i dont know already”

or if he threatens me, i’m going to do what i hate to do most and threaten suicide. bc it’ll be the only way to get through that asshole’s thick skull for once