I might give my work a call sometime in the next few days to give them a heads-up about my situation. That’s professional, right? After all, I only see them once a week. Except I haven’t seen them in the last two weeks…

Also I made the decision to just watch as much P4G as I can to finally be done with it, but… Idk I can’t help but feel sad? Like I feel kinda helpless. I’m sitting on a couch, fighting off the sleepiness the painkillers give me while biting on gauze. 

I don’t want to sleep until I’m sure the blood has slowed down a lot. Which might mean I don’t sleep at all tonight… I’m scared of what might happen. 

I just wanna do things… But I can neither talk nor keep my attention span up for more than 20 mins without zoning out/dozing off…